Monday, July 4, 2011

Hello June. Good-bye June.

My monthly horoscope said this was how my June was going to be....

For Scorpions planning on traveling, be prepared for delays. Scorpions find relationships positive this next and for the following year. Single Scorpions may find themselves getting involved in a new romance. Money matters shine this month with the possibility of an increase in family funds. Several sources may be involved. Be cautious with credit, especially on the 10 th. Not a day for shopping.

Fuck you, June. That's not how that shit went down at all.

On a whole though, I guess June wasn't SO bad. I mean it flew by! Did anyone else notice that? I mean, it was like June 1st then it was like blink! July 1st. Aislinn starts school in like SIX WEEKS. I just can't believe it.

What can I say about what is going on in my life? Not too much. I've been here just over six months. I'm adjusting as well as I can. Started working in Febuary, so I've only been a working mom for about four months. It's just amazing to me, how much my life has changed. I can't really say I've accepted all gracefully. I've done some kicking and screaming along the way. I could be doing better, but isn't that the truth for everyone? Please, someone.. tell that yes, even for Oprah, it could be better?

Fine. Whatever.

I have been going through a lot of emotions. Worry, fear, isolation, loneliness. The lonliness is the worst. I don't even mean, like lonely for a dude, just lonely in general. Everyone is off busy doing their things, and I'm just here at home, every other weekend, watching Cake Boss marathons and plucking my eyebrows. I know that deep down that's what I NEED to be doing for the most part, but I also need to try and put myself out there.

That's what this whole transitioning period is about. I'm doing things I never thought I could do. One thing I've always sucked at is making and maintaining friendships. So, that's my next step. I don't know how I will do this, but I will.

No comments:

Post a Comment